My New Medicine Bag

So My old medicine bag got a little torn and tattered so I made a new one.. However, I fully handsewed everything and embroidered it myself.

What is Magick?

So many non-pagan people seem to not know or not understand what Magick truly is. Fundamental Christianity View Witch-Craft as something that comes from the devil and that it is evil. Which is a bunch of misunderstood stereotypes that are not true. Especially when Christianity is also guilty of witchcraft. If you are Christian asking, how So? Well I am about to give an answer to that.

Christianity stole Celtic Holidays and Stories and Celtic Rituals and transformed it to fit their doctrine. Christianity is only 3,000 years old where as the gods and other pagan beliefs extend far beyond those years. Ever since Humans walked this planet humans believed in the existence of more than one god. An example of this is during the holiday Lunasa or Lughnassadh (August 1st). It is a holiday to celebrate the harvest, and the balance of light and dark as autumn approaches. In this ancient Celtic Ritual, it has the purification of Bread and wine much like what Christians do as Communion. If Communion was taken from a Celtic Ritual that is based upon a Celtic Holiday is that not also still incorporating Magick?

In the book Celtic Magick by DJ Conway, the Lunasa Ritual outlines as thus:

Cast the circle, call out 4 corners or 4 watchtowers, Light Cauldron Candle and say "Oh ancient gods of the celts, I do ask your precense here, for this is  time that is not a time, in a place that is not a place on a day that is not a day, and I await you."  Then set a plate of bread on the pentacle. Stand still and breath deeply for a few moments. Concentrating upon the cleansing power of the breath and air. When you feel ready say: "I have purified myself by breathing the life force of the universe and expelling all evil from me."

Then lift the plate of bread high then set it back on the alter and say: "I know that every seed, every grain is a record of ancient times and a promise to all of what shall be, this break represents life eternal through the cauldron of the triple goddess."  Now Eat a piece of bread ( sound familiar?)  Put the challice of wine on the pentacle, hold the wine in the air and set it back on the alter and say "As the grape undergoes change to become wine, so by the sacred cauldron of life shall I undergo change and as this wine can give man enchantment of the divine or sink him into the lower realms, so I do realize that all humans rise or fall according to their strength and will" Drink some of the wine (Again sound familiar?)

Then after drinking wine you say: "As in the bread and wine, so it is with me, within all forms it is locked a record of the past and a promise for the future. I ask that you lay your blessings upon me, ancient ones, that this season of waning light and increasing darkness may not be heavy, so mote it be,"  Then do the standard closing of letting go of the watch towers and putting out candles, and casting the circle (DJ Conway).

This is nearly the exact same ritual as communion, the only difference is that Christians changed it to symbolize the blood of Jesus and the Bread for the Body of Jesus and they say different words. Orriginally the Bread and Wine ritual came from a Celtic Holladay and thus using basic Magick ritual/spell to ingest Jesus's energy instead of the ancient deities to create a connection to Jesus through spirit and soul Magick.

So now to answer the question What is Magick? Magick is basically the manipulation of Astral Energies and the connection to the higher self. Of which case, happens in every culture and religion. Meditation is a way to connect to the higher self which is manipulating your own astral energies, and thus Magick. Magick is a natural part of this world of which God (primal source who is the nameless one) and the Gods (Created by primal source to help create life and run the universe) put here on earth. It is one of our gifts. For Centuries people used magick to heal, and make food and contact the god's and the dead.

Also the whole candle burning thing that comes from Magick. Burning White Candles in the church to purify the space is something Pagans have done for a long time. Creating holy water is not just within the power of the church but within the power of ones own being. Burning Incense to create a sacred and purified state is also something that comes from the pagans. The Chalice and incense burners and the way rituals are held in the Catholic Church, as well as Many of the churches Ideas come from Pagans. If Christians and priests and pastors actually took the time to do the research and be open-minded about it, I bet anything people would realize that Magick is everywhere, in everything despite what they have come to believe.

One of the problems I have with Christianity, is that they Condemn Magick but yet use it at the same time. Which is totally hypocritical. Jesus was sent by the primal source to become a teacher to man, and help restore the balance of this world, but Man (influenced by the devil who is not the same entity as the god of the underworld and is not Lucifer the fallen angel) twisted his teachings and dominated the world into a patriarchy seeking power and control of the human race.

Another problem I have with Christianity is something they do not realize, but they are being manipulated by what they call the devil, who is not the god of the underworld nor is he Hades or satan, The devil is a whole different entity who is seeking to disrupt the balance of this world and wants to conquer this section of the universe, and has been fairly successful in the last 2500 years or so since Christianity conquered the western world through religion. When Christians try to Connect to Jesus through meditation and prayer (just like in ancient cultures) Some of them connect to something that they shouldn't be connecting with instead because they give up their will to "God" and in surrendering their will, they surrender their strength and are easily manipulated and can easily be possessed (or so that is what makes sense to me).  Instead of connecting to their own higher selves they are actually connecting to something other than themselves and that is not the way it is supposed to go. Truth comes from within yourself, not from a book, nor from another inter-dimensional Being.

The God of the underworld is not the devil nor is he the source of all evil. He is just one of the god's who is good and who does his job is in order to put balance on this earth by taking the dead and making sure they go to the right places either down in his underworld (or prison) for people who are bad, or to heaven for people who are good. His Celtic Name is Arawn, his greek name is Hades and has many more names in other pantheons. Christians like to call him Satan, But like I said he is someone that is not to be feared, and is on the side of good in his own way. 

If anything I think the source of all evil comes from humans and their stubbornness and their misguided religions. After all it was the Christians who decided to pin the source of all evil on a God that is just doing its Job to help the primal source of creation run the universe. It was Christians who killed millions of innocent men, women, and Children in crusades, and even ended up Killing other Christians because they objected to the conquest that happened so long ago.

Some Churches have even manipulated the bible so much that it promotes hate towards GLBT, People of different skin colors, and just hate towards people who are not Christian and still cling to the old pagan pantheons. I have read some of the bible and I have even heard preachers preach to people that we are supposed to hate what god hates and then they have a list of what god hates. The most misguided and naive thing about Christianity is saying that god hates anything. The Ture Primal Source God (who is neither male or female but both at the same time and is called the nameless one) does not Hate anything. God the primal source of Creation is all about Love. Christians Teach Love, but from my experience it is a very limited love that they teach. God is only supposed to love Christians and hate everything else. So not true. This is why I became Pagan. I just got tired of all these lies and misguided-ness.

The last Problem I have with Christians is their whole view of what is evil and what is good, and the whole Light V.S. Darkness. I have stated in a previous blog called The Battle of Light and Dark that Darkness doesn't mean evil and that darkness is not to be afraid. You may go to the blog for farther information.

Viewers Discretion: I do not think Christians are evil. I have met many Christians who are on the side of light and good. I have met many Christian Individuals who are open minded and also don't believe everything the bible says and they still are very spiritual people. I have some Christian Friends who have some the same spiritual gifts I have and accept what is and what isn't. Also I am not attacking Christians individually or their faith, I am just stating what I have experienced and seen through my eyes of The Christian/Catholic Church, and not the individuals who are believers. These are opinions I have formed by researching other religions and the unbiased look into Christian History. No harm is intended to any one or anything.

The Third Eye

So what is the third eye? The third eye rests on the forehead above the two physical eyes. It is said to be the focal point in spiritual development. It is known as the eye of Horus in ancient Egyptian legends and there are teachings of it from Christianity to Buddhists. Across the whole globe for years it has been known. So if you don't believe it exists then how come its been known since the dawn of time? It is known to hold great power, your higher self, or your soul. It helps with the development of psychic talents, and is also known physically as the pineal gland. Pineal glands in humans have been for the most part mainly been dormant in humans. Scientific studies of the pineal gland have been rumored that the more active this gland is in a human the more that human seems to be aware of things and know things they couldn't have known before. They are recorded as psychics or highly intuitive individuals. Here is the link to explain more in depth what this eye is about.

In any case, this past week I have started to open my eye. It is about 25 percent of the way open and let me tell you I am still trying to get used to the effects. The energies I feel and sense are heightened, I am starting to get more visions and much of the time I don't need my cards in order to activate my seer's ability. My Medium abilities are getting stronger. I was able to channel a dead spirit for the first time inside my body and all I can say is, it was strange.

I sometimes have so many voices and visions in my head that I don't know exactly what is going on half the time. Things in my head are a bit fuzzy but still cant rule out the intuition and the feeling that someone else was in control of my body. It just felt weird. However, I disclose to those who believe in psychics that I am not a strong psychic like Sylvia Browne or Chris. Half the time I don't know what I'm seeing means, and sometimes I don't even know if my impressions or intuition is correct. All I know is sometimes what I see and what I feel seems to either come true or be true on some level, even if it is the most basic level. Not only that but the future is not set in stone. It can change with every small decision you make. Also I really feel that Psychic is a bad word because I don't consider myself psychic. I consider myself a seer, a medium, and highly intuitive. Not only that but I don't do readings for people for money. I do it for free when I feel like it. And most of the time they are for people of friends and family. Mainly it is for practice and for fun. One of the main reasons why people who use the word psychic get ridiculed because most of them are fake.

One of the rules I was taught by my spirit guide is to never charge for services. They told me that I was meant to help others without personal gain and getting money or accepting money to make a big profit,  for readings is personal gain. There is only one Claimed Psychic that I feel is a true anomaly in the "Psychic Business" and that is Sylvia Browne, but I don't agree with her tactics to charge tons of money just to help people. All that is doing reinforcing the stereotype and taking money from people who are probably poor and putting it on their credit cards and creating more debt in this failing economy. How is that helping anyone? Think about it. How is charging people to help them, really helping them?

If she really saw the events or changes that are to come in this world, you would think she would do more than just do readings to help others. Or charging to be members of her inner circle website? How is charging helping people in this economy? If I were as strong as her in her abilities, then the only thing Id do is is charge for travel costs if I have to travel to other states and other countries but doing readings for profit? I don't think I would do that no matter how poor or desperate I get.  I don't know why I get so irritated with her. I love her because she is an amazing true psychic, I can sense that just by looking at her picture, but I hate her at the same time for reinforcing stereotypes and making a profit off of her gifts...it seems so wrong to me. Sighs...

Another Psychic I must blog about is Allison Dibois. From what I can tell about her, is she is just Highly intuitive and isn't really psychic either. Don't get me wrong, the TV show that was inpired by her is really entertaining, but Her intuition and abilities aren't that strong, she gets mixed signals a lot and doesn't always know the things she claims to know. She only thinks she knows. Her third eye hasn't opened yet, and so she isn't as strong as she thinks she is. Sylvia Browne, however, has her third eye completely open. I get the sense that Sylvia was a very high Ranking Isis priestess in a lot of her past lives. She was always a strong Seer, medium in many of her past lives and that power has accumulated in her soul where as Alison Dibois, this is her first life gaining any sense of psychic talents. She has newbie status compared to Sylvia.

Wierd Dream about my ex- maybe hes dead or will be dead?

I had this dream about my ex. It was strange. I was viewing episodes of a show but it was wierd because I was in it. I was watching myself getting in contact with My ex Who I feel I had left things unresolved with. I am over the relationship but I spent 2 years with this guy and I still think about him and dream about him from time to time... And in any case I had contacted him in the dream and it was hard for him but he was willing to be friends again. We played dnd with my twin flame and his friends. Then since he found out I was going to the convention that he goes to every year, We decided to go drive down to this convention that we had gone before. We got stuck in minneapolis somewhere and there were all kinds of creatures everywhere. I had to do something and I think at some point we got lost, and then find eachother again. Anyway we decide to keep driving to this convention and somehow while he was driving this girl in White hair we both saw stopped us. She was calling herself the crone and I could see all these people and these spirit guides around us. Then she says something to my ex and he lays down and I see his spirit go outside his body and he then is dressed differently and looked peaceful than he normally was. I was like take me too, I love him, I must be with him etc, and she fights me on this saying its not my time, etc and then she says fine you can come with too, but for now you must sleep. She touches me and knocks me out. I woke up in the dream hours later only to find that down the road the car that we were driving in was in an accident and I was a bout 50 feet away from the car. I wake up in the middle of the road and the police and people were looking for my body but I started waking up and walking towards the car horrified and hurt. I then snap out of this tv episode that was playing and I couldn't figure out where in the timeline of eposides where and when this was happening. I couldn't find it and re-watch it again. I then woke up I mean really woke up in my bed wondering wtf? I chose my soul mate/ twin flame to be with, not him, why would I do anything like that? Or most importantly the question that came to mind, is Eric Dead? I keep thinking maybe he's dead but maybe he can't be. I don't understand why I had this dream.

Friendship repair spell

Copyright: Nevaeh Jasmine

 If you ever find yourself in need to repair a friendship, I just created this spell. Mainly because I had a friend I thought was long gone but according to some of our mutual aquantences, apparently this ex friend is missing me, and to be quite honest I miss her too some days. Wondering if I was too harsh, maybe I should have communicated more, or did something different but yet still stood my ground.

I am human and I know most of us may not be able to handle certain types of situations with grace and finesse that it sometimes requires.  I am still unsure I want to be friends with her. I don't trust her but she needs me. I may not be able to put out as much effort but one of my best qualities is I am a very good friend to people I care about, and I have not stopped caring about this person. Her and I had been friends for over ten years. I used to look up to her when I was a freshman because she is a little bit older than I am, and at the time considered her the sister I never had.

Candles colors: White, Blue, and Green
White for protection, Blue for meditation and peace, and green for friendships and healing

Anyway for herbs I used Lavender, Jasmine, Vervarian root pieces, Eucalyptus leaves, and rose buds.
 I used lavender and jasmine because it is associated with peace, Vervarian because it can be associated with friendships as well as rosebuds, and Eucalyptus leaves because it is a healing herb. The vibes I wanted to send were Peace, friendship, and healing. Peace of mind, repairing friendship, and Healing our wounds from the fight/issues that were going on.

Write on a piece of paper of the name ( and possible the intent and objective) of the person you are trying to repair the friendship with.

Once all the supplies have been gathered, the herbs should be put into a ceramic bowl, the candles lit, and whatever incense you would like to use. I used rose smelling incense for Friendship love.

Put the piece of paper inside the ceramic bowl with the unburned herbs.

Recide this spell/words/poem, and imagine healing and love, friendship, and understanding, and peace between the two of you.

 I wish to repair this friendship. 

Let anger, resentment, and issues surrounding it

be worked out and replace any harmful energies

With love, peace, patience, and understanding

so no harm comes anyone.

If this is your will so mote it be.

Then light the piece of paper on fire so that the herbs are also being burned into the sky. Then put holy water over the ashes.  (yes this will create a mess..) Then dump the ashes and gunk on the ground outside (if you are doing it inside) so that mother earth can do its healing. 

Close the spell and do whatever it is you need to do to repair your friendship as in writing letters/notes/ making a phone call/ etc. May the goddess bless you.

Night Prayer and morning prayer

So this is a nigh prayer I wrote for the goddess to pray before bedtime.

 Thank you great goddess for this day

For the blessings it brought

and for the lessons it taught, 

May my sleep be peacful

May my dreams be good

May I rest so that tomorrow I do my best

So mote it be.

The morning prayer I wrote is this one.

 Thank you great goddess for this day

that I am about to enjoy

May it be filled with blessings,

may it be filled with learning

May it be filled with love and peace

May I do my very best today to stay positive

Thank you goddess for hearing my prayer.

The only problem with praying is I'm usually not very good at doing it as often as I should.

My new alter

So my brother has finally moved out. I had my boyfriend and one of my best friends come over and help me clean my room. There is still stuff to do but for the most part I got my alter set up and this is what it looks like. One of my spirit guides is a bear so I used a fleace bear material and then I put my rabbit pelts I got from a trading post up north while visiting a Native American museum  in my youth. I can't wait to make use of it. It has been weeks since I have done any cleansing or any meditating. I have been working overnights and mostly have been sleeping and working only. I think I am going to do that before I go to bed tonight because I think It really needs to be done. I haven't really been doing any magick all last month since I started overnights but I hope to change that. I feel it is much needed.

Also The concept of prayer I only thought was just a christian thing but I recently found out prayer and daily dedications/meditations are from all religions and not just christainity. My issue is, choosing which god or godess to pray to. I think it should be mother earth. Anyway I am  going to get started on that. Good night everyone.

Pumpkin Seed Protection Spell

There's not much information on pumpkin seeds and how they pertain to Magick. Pumpkin seeds taken from Halloween jackolantern's, however, may be a different story. For example according to the celt's they would make jackolanterns to protect the house from bad spirits on the night of the dead. So extracting pumpkin seeds and saving them can actually be a good thing. I have made up a protection spell using these extracted pumpkin seeds. The goal with this spell though is to protect yourself from people who mean to harm you or do ill will, or even can be a spell to stop gossip. I think its meant to do all of these things though.

First thing to do is make sure the pumpkin seeds are dry. Get a permanent marker and write down the names and or initials of the people who you know or sense mean you harm onto the pumpkin seed(s).  

Second step is to light a white candle

Third step is make a circle out of protection herbs such as Basil, salt, etc.

Fourth step is to Put the pumpkin seeds inside the circle.

Fifth step is to imagine whit light surrounding you blocking out the influences and energies of these people while saying this small  incantation.

Goddess/god I pray to you now

Protect me from these people,

Let their tongues be stilled,

No harmful energy can come to me through the barrier,

so that No Harm comes to me through them,

So that no one is harmed,

So mote it be

Then after the spell is completed, you go outside and bury the seeds in the ground. Acting symbolicly that these people are not close to you and never will be, and you can also alter it a little bit to symbolize that these people are out of your life too. Also maybe it be good to sprinkle some Basil around where you bury the pumpkin seeds to make sure they stay away from you.

The Altar, May Day, and spirit guides.

This is sorta what my alter looks like. I have changed a few things around since this picture was last taken, but all in all you get the idea. I don't have all the tools that books say that is required to do magick, but that is because I don't think I believe I need all those tools. Mainly because you can also do spells in your mind if you are visually capable enough.  I have candles, herbs, books in the open drawers,  holy water, incense stick burner, a small white grinder,  a wand, a dagger, a big ceramic fantasy covered bowl I made in high school, a small ceramic tea cup that holds my stones, and a couple of white sage smudging bundles.

My brother is moving out at the end of the month so hopefully I have more room in my room to get a separate space for my alter and have a spot just for my alter stuff. And possibly a small book case to put all my books and journals I am collecting. I am looking forward to getting my room back into shape and get more space to work with. It will be my version of Spring Cleaning.

Also in light of May day. I really wanted to do some type of ritual, but the only thing that I really got to do was I had gotten a red rose from my boyfriend, and contact my spirit guides. I have two of them. For me it was a new beginning to actually hear my spirit guides talk to me and give me guidance. They are full of life and so very protective of me. One of them is a Snow Leopard, and the other one is a Kodiak Bear. They are so beautiful. I am glad I was finally able to talk to them and see them. As for how I did it, well I didn't do any rituals. I just concentrated on connecting with my heart, and who or what they are in my mind, and I opened my eyes and they were right there. It was interesting that, that is all that was needed. Or maybe it was just that I was ready to know who they are, and my time for them to appear to me.

Here is the information on Bear Spirit Guides. 

Here is the information on Snow Leopard Spirit Guides.

Affirmations-mastering thyself part 2

In an earlier blog I wrote about mastering yourself, and about letting go and mastering anger. However, that is not the only issue I need or have to face. The very core issues aside from anger, I think I have found is the fact I have issues with confidence, fears, believing and trusting in myself as well as my abilities. I am a strong witch, I need to start 100 percent fully believing and trusting in that fact. 

I have composed of 6 daily affirmations to start doing ritually, sometimes maybe even doing a small mental spell to amplify the power of the affirmations, or do it while meditating and not just saying them and writing them everyday.

Affirmation Number 1: I Am Not Evil! 

                     This affirmation is mainly because I have a hard time forgiving myself, which is part of the anger issue. I have made a lot of mistakes in my life, and I punish myself for them. I wrote poetry talking about how I am a monster, and that I don't diserve anything in this world. I may have changed my thinking with that on that for the most part, but there are still days that I question if I am really good or not. Still a work in progress. However, maybe because I question myself, I wont have to worry about ever becoming evil or bad because questioning actions objectively and to make sure I don't do any harm to any one.

Affirmation number 2: I must trust myself and trust in my abilities

                    A lot of the times I have issues trusting in myself and in what I can do, not so much magically, but more so with life in general. Mostly it is about my career path, and what I want to do with my life. Alot of it is because part of me does not know what I should do or where I should go to strive for my goals. I don't even know where to start, and it is most taxing.  My spiritual path with magick though is making me realize I not only need to trust in magick but also trust in myself to do magick. Trust what I know, trusting in my intuition, and most importantly, trust my judgement when I get bad vibes or have a bad feeling about something or someone. So in turn I trust my intuition to tell me whats right with my career path, and other life situations as they arise. Also to trust yourself to know what to do when certain situations arise that you don't think you can handle alone. If you are anything like me, you know deep down that you are a lot stronger than you think you are.

Affirmation number 3: I must Believe in myself and my abilities. 

           This goes hand in hand with Trusting in one's self and One's abilities. If I Don't believe that I can accomplish goals, and believe I have the ability to accomplish goals, then I can't trust in myself. It all comes down to belief. Same with magick. I believe I can cast spells, and work my powers, but if I don't believe in the fact I can do these things, or even not believe in magick in general, hard to do any spell work that way or any  manifestations. Think about it. Believing and having faith is the key. Also believing that you know what to do in certain situations when something goes wrong also helps. Like I said before. We are stronger than what we think we are.

Affirmation number 4: I must have no fear!

            I have a lot of fears when it comes to life and with magick. I fear I will do something stupid and hurt someone, or I fear I will do something stupid and hurt myself with out realizing it. I fear the vast dangers that sometimes occur in magicks. Sometimes in life you just have to take necessary risks in order to get things done, and to take risks in order fully live a full life. After all being human, life is short. What is the point in living in fear all the time? It certainly does not get you anywhere. With career goals I also need to get over fearing the what if's. I always seem to think about what if I don't get into grad school, or what if I don't get a high enough score on the GRE? Then I think well how will I know for sure until I try? I get so wound up that I keep forgetting to actually do something and try, instead of just thinking about it... biggest issue in my life right there. Getting over these fears also goes back into trusting and believing in one self. In order to be fearless you have to believe in yourself and trust in yourself.

Affirmation number 5: I am beautiful despite my traits

This Affirmation is more of a personal thing. I know many people out there don't look like super models. Many of us oddly shaped people get discouraged and feel ugly even though they have a beautiful and strong heart. It also sorta goes back to not being evil or bad. Ugliness is perceived as an evil in American society. For example, someone who is obese or overweight is seen as ugly because the stereotype says they can't control their apatite, or because they don't do anything to take care of their bodies, which isn't always true. Some people have legitimate medical conditions that make someone obese. You get looked down upon by society and get seen as lazy. However, I sometimes work 12 hour shifts, I jump into other stations to help my team members, and sometimes even run most of the work stations myself on slow days. I work my butt off for the little money I earn, and even have to put up with a lot of rudeness from managers as well as customers just to even survive. Being ugly by American Culture shouldn't mean that you are an evil person because you are ugly. It doesn't make sense because you are not ugly nor evil just because you look different. Beauty is so overrated anyway. Ive dated some ugly guys who treated me like crap, and yet Ive dated some amazing good looking guys who treated me like a princess. Appearances is not everything, and I wish more and more people could realize this; especially the stuck up shallow snobs. Anyway sorry this is long but I think this is one that is one of the most sensitive topics for me, along with a lot of other American's out there.


Anyway, those are my self affirmations and the reasoning behind them. I think everyone should do positive self talk, and self affirmations. How else are we going to learn to have peace within ourselves so that we can help the world change and become a better place for everyone?  I been working on my thoughts and changing how I see myself for the last few years, because I do deserve happiness just like everyone else does. It is just a long process. It is not something that is instant or done over night. It is something you have to constantly work at and commit too. I have come a long ways since I started doing this, but there is always more work to be done!

Dream Protection

So I had a lot of nightmares last night. Sometimes when I am really exhausted I get a lot of nightmares, or something. I have a dream catcher with amethyst stones to help ward of bad dreams. However, every once in awhile it doesn't always work. My sachet that I made didn't seem to work so I decided to redo it and cleanse my dream catcher and imbued it with  more protection energies, as well as have a back up just in case.

I lit up a white candle, did the usual protection circle, burned some Dragon's Blood Incense, etc and proceeded with the activities.

Herbs I used were, garlic, Basil, Lavander, Jasmine, sea salt, Bay leaf, ginger, sage, and angelica

The stone(s) I used was amethysts.

Basically mixed up the herbs concentrating on pure protection as I added each herb. I imagined any dream demons being banished and any other harmful entities being banished while I slept.  Then I wrote down my objective on a piece of paper and put it in the pouch just for clarification, and put the stone and herbs into the sachet.

Then I held my dream catcher over some burning white sage to smudge and cleanse the dream catcher. I held it in my hand imagining white light surrounding it and surrounding myself while I slept. I told it to protect me from bad dreams, as well as protect me from evil entities or harmful entities. and imagined all protection energies inside this dream catcher. I was then done so I closed up shop.

I felt better.. loads better after doing this.

Lapis Luzil and Crystal Quartz pendulum

I made this necklace as a protection amulet, originally, but I am noticing that it amplifies my powers when I put it on. So I think it is more of an amplifier than a protector.  It is also a heavy necklace. It's something I probably wanna wear for really strong high magics when I get that far, or for when I wanna put some extra oomph in my basic spells. I have a third lapiz luzil stone that I will use for recreational use as well. From what I gather though, these Lapis Luzile stones, are really powerful stones, and in ancient Egyptians, they are the power of the Egyptian gods. They have strong healing and protection abilities as well as used for increased psychic awareness. They are magically stronger than amethysts I think from the way they feel to me. And I think since their stronger ability is amplified pychichism, and since quartz crystals also naturally amplify the magic in other stones, it only makes sense why this necklace is more of an amplifier than a protector. I have other magical necklaces that help protect me so in a sense it really isn't needed. I like creating magickal jewelry like this.

self made pendulum-necklace

I had bought some quartz crystals last night. This is the Quartz Crystal necklace I made for my Boyfriend. I made it so it can be used as a pendulum or a Scrying Crystal.  I know how to make hemp necklaces so that is what I did with this one. I'm going to make another one for myself, however I might use lapiz luzile stone instead of quartz crystal since I already have a stone for scrying with. I have amethyst necklace I made but Lapiz Luzile is a more powerful stone of protection and psychic awareness. Especially since the moment I brought it into my home, I was astral projecting all night and getting prophetic dreams. I can't wait to present this gift to my boyfriend. He is going to absolutely love it!

A basic Update

I am sorry,  I have not been able to write for a few days. I have been working very odd shifts at McDonald's and on my off time I have been resting instead of doing any pagan work. This past week I have been doing Early mornings and overnights. Its quite exhausting. I put in 14 hours on Friday. This basic update is about how I am doing and what is to come. I have some plans. Anyways, aside from working a lot, I have been watching Ghost Whisperer on Netflix and trying to get as much sleep as I can. I think tonight I am going to smoke some wild grass or make it into a tea so that I can be sedated and get lots of rest tonight.

As far as what is to come so far as I know, is I have a plan to do a self mediation on the next full moon. I want to know where the true source of my rage and anger comes from. My teacher says that anger can disrupt the balance inside you and in order to have full control of magicks you have to be balanced. Doing a spell under the influence of harmful and negative emotions, can mess up the spell you are doing or mess up any kind of magick that you try to do under the influence of these emotions. It will be about getting inside my mind and looking deep inside myself to find the answers I see.

Also I have written a few protection spells I would like to share but it will be tomorrow or on a different day. At the present moment I don't have the energy to write them out.

Anyway I hope everyone's days are blessed and full of light and love!

Wild Lettuce- sleep issues

Ok, so I have to admit I have insomnia/sleep issues. I think it is due to the fact I have post traumatic stress disorder, however, in order to help me sleep. I have been looking into herbalism and have come across a herb called Wild Lettuce. Not only does it aid in sleep as a mild sedative, but it also is a pain reliever and many other uses.

On WebMD.com it states thus:


"Wild lettuce is used for whooping cough, asthma, urinary tract problems, cough, trouble sleeping (insomnia), restlessness, excitability in children, painful menstrual periods, excessive sex drive in women (nymphomania), muscular or joint pains, poor circulation, swollen genitals in men (priapism), and as an opium substitute in cough preparations."

It also is known to relieve headaches, and mild back pain. I really think this Herb can help me in many areas. Especially with headaches and sleep. And who knows maybe headaches are also a result from sleep deprivation?

In any case I have also prepared a sachet that I hold under my pillow embedded as a spell to help with sleep.

The herbs I mixed were rosemary, rose buds/petals, marjoram, basil (for protection in my dreams while I sleep), thyme, wild lettuce, sage, and lavender.

Then I put an amethyst stone in the sachet too and a blue stone to promote calmness of mind. Then I lit a blue candle  and a white candle and imagined myself falling deep asleep that will help me get rested for my day and seeing myself full of energy. Then I said outloud:

Goddess I pray to you now so that I may have restful sleep

so that I will be full of energy for going about my day,

so that my mind is calmed when I'm restless

so that I may sleep and dream good dreams

keep out the bad dreams and protect me while I am dreaming,

Do this so that no one is harmed

If this is your will, so mote it be.

Then I ended the prayer and grounded myself and put the satchet under my pillow. The last few nights I have been sleeping well so I am confident that I was successful.